Admit it.

I know there are some people who laugh at me in the class which I don't even know why. But believe me, in the end of the day I'm gonna be the one who'll laugh out loud at you, cause you guys are bunch of losers. And you know what? Admit it!

Idk.

When you're afraid to look back and you're not ready to move on, what are you gonna do?

Me, I don't know, I don't have any idea.

Only Bye Because There's No Good-Bye

Yesterday I was so happy, until...

Last night somehow I got that feeling which was never been strong comparing to the other days. Say it : I-am-stalker, yes I checked your account and found the answer... the answer why you didn't text me since weeks ago with those simple words or questions that always made me smiled. I was crazy, still crazy for you-know-who.

I have no idea why I did this to myself. I've been tortured by this feeling, trapped like years in uncertainty, and I'm still thinking we are gonna make it, someday. But you know, I am stupid, definitely the foolest guy ever. But no, I don't blame it on you, I just wonder why did you make everything like on purpose? Or are you that plain till you didn't know you have left this painful-trace in me? Thank you so much. Because you know, we can't be just friends, I've told you. Even more, we can't be us.

I'm broken.

I realize it's time to move on. Move on into the real action. I don't want to be this fool-mad-blind-guy anymore. I make my decision. In order to realize it, would you like to do me a favor by going away, forever? It will be very nice from you and I appreciate it.

I mean it. So, bye...

Have you?

Have you ever failed? How did you feel at that time?

The Day

This morning woke up was thinking about this day-the date which happens every year but this time unfortunately along with the fact I'm getting old and I don’t give a damn for this thing, in another way. Seriously I appreciate those utterances, wishes, or whatsoever. I still, let say don't like birthday since years ago, but why should I hate it, at least this one? I shouldn't feel that way cause there are peoples who care about me ; families, best friends, friends, and the special one. So, one thing that keeps me smiling the whole day are them :-) Huge thanks for the cake!

p.s. God do me a favor please, gimme back my 19 yo, 20 doesn't fit to me ;-p

(I wrote this on 19/02/10)

Oh no!

The day -- the date precisely, that I'm afraid of, is tomorrow which is my birthday. I don't like birthday.

p.s. nevertheless, I don't mind to receive your call at 0.00, in fact I wish you do it.

Yes, I am sad.

I am sad and really, I am pathetic. I got only 15 sks for this semester just because I took a semester off last semester in order to abreast of fellowship. How could this happen to me? It's totally totally unfair ;-(