Idk.

When you're afraid to look back and you're not ready to move on, what are you gonna do?

Me, I don't know, I don't have any idea.

Only Bye Because There's No Good-Bye

Yesterday I was so happy, until...

Last night somehow I got that feeling which was never been strong comparing to the other days. Say it : I-am-stalker, yes I checked your account and found the answer... the answer why you didn't text me since weeks ago with those simple words or questions that always made me smiled. I was crazy, still crazy for you-know-who.

I have no idea why I did this to myself. I've been tortured by this feeling, trapped like years in uncertainty, and I'm still thinking we are gonna make it, someday. But you know, I am stupid, definitely the foolest guy ever. But no, I don't blame it on you, I just wonder why did you make everything like on purpose? Or are you that plain till you didn't know you have left this painful-trace in me? Thank you so much. Because you know, we can't be just friends, I've told you. Even more, we can't be us.

I'm broken.

I realize it's time to move on. Move on into the real action. I don't want to be this fool-mad-blind-guy anymore. I make my decision. In order to realize it, would you like to do me a favor by going away, forever? It will be very nice from you and I appreciate it.

I mean it. So, bye...

Have you?

Have you ever failed? How did you feel at that time?

The Day

This morning woke up was thinking about this day-the date which happens every year but this time unfortunately along with the fact I'm getting old and I don’t give a damn for this thing, in another way. Seriously I appreciate those utterances, wishes, or whatsoever. I still, let say don't like birthday since years ago, but why should I hate it, at least this one? I shouldn't feel that way cause there are peoples who care about me ; families, best friends, friends, and the special one. So, one thing that keeps me smiling the whole day are them :-) Huge thanks for the cake!

p.s. God do me a favor please, gimme back my 19 yo, 20 doesn't fit to me ;-p

(I wrote this on 19/02/10)

Oh no!

The day -- the date precisely, that I'm afraid of, is tomorrow which is my birthday. I don't like birthday.

p.s. nevertheless, I don't mind to receive your call at 0.00, in fact I wish you do it.

Yes, I am sad.

I am sad and really, I am pathetic. I got only 15 sks for this semester just because I took a semester off last semester in order to abreast of fellowship. How could this happen to me? It's totally totally unfair ;-(

Fess it up

Uh well, I recently enjoy writing in a short line. I'm just the way too indolent to express the feelings I have. Whatever..